Tuesday, January 5, 2010

2010- Not really a fan.

I'm sorry, but it's true. I was so ready for 2009 to be over. I was done, I was ready for a new start, a fresh new year. Don't get me wrong, in 2009 we had the greatest little blessing ever, Mr. Cason, but it was the hardest year I have ever had. Not only was having a baby hard, the exhaustion, the hormones, the sickness. To add to that we had a terrible economy which put added pressure at work.. as if working full time with a baby is easy.

I want to be positive, I really do. I even attempted to change my mindset for a bright new year full of wonderful unknowns. Then, January 1st 7:00 am, I find a screaming Cason on the floor having fallen out of his crib. Thankfully he was fine but I don't know if I have recovered. "What a great start to the year" I said. Mike was more encouraging "It's just one thing". Then, the next few nights Cason stopped sleeping through the night and started screaming. Then I had an unfortunate incedent out to lunch and my partially fake tooth (yes, I know it sounds redneck) fell out. 2 hours at the dentist getting it fixed (it is a front tooth so it had to be done right away) and I'm ready to say goodbye to 2010.

I'm exhausted, I'm discouraged, I'm frustrated, I'm stressed, I'm stretched thin, I'm confused and unsure. I know God can't use me when I'm like this. I know I need an attitude adjustment and I need to be thankful in all my circumstances and so many other things. I'm just having a hard time with that right now... so honest is the best I can be.

5 comments:

amberdawn said...

I totally am right there with you! We spent Jan 1 at Cook's Children's Hospital downtown Ft Worth with Dalton having 1st and 2nd degree burns on his upper body! Now we spend every day cleaning and rebandaging it-so not fun! He hates us for it I am sure! And on top of that, we had a business deal go south, and now owe a lot of money! Yech! But, maybe just maybe we will be getting the worst part over with now, and the rest will be super easy! Hmmmm....praying for that!
Love you and your honesty!

Lori Calder said...

Oh don't say that - I'm hoping 2010is my year! I sure hope things go better for you. Let's get together for lunch soon!

Brittany said...

Just remember tomorrow is a new day. What happened yesterday is the past!

Dina said...

Maybe all those bad things are just leftovers from 2009 and the bad luck fairy didn't know it was a new year. Pretend like 2010 starts today!

Cat said...

I know. Every day i want to get better and it's not. Last night was one of the worst. Mike and I were up all night with a screaming Cason. he would only sleep if we were holding him. he got sleep, we didn't. Then, Casons school was closed today which would have normally been a good thing becuase i get to stay home but i have burned through all my vacation, he still won't sleep, i'm exhausted, and i can't accomplish anything. the world is not a pretty place when you are extremely exhausted. I know it will get better.

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