Last Monday night is when it all started. I just couldn't sleep. Don't know why, there's no particular reason, I didn't feel that tired but i knew i was. It made Tuesday a little hard because I was quite tired. Then Tuesday night, still couldn't sleep but this time it was because my stopped up nose was not allowing me to breathe properly. That's when i gave in and started playing game boy at 2 am. I was so tired of not feeling well and not sleeping and not knowing what to do about it that I ended up in tears, while playing Tetris. Needless to say, I didn't do as well as I could have (I'm typically awesome at Tetris). The rest of the week was somewhat better, well, the sleeping was better but the sinus problems were worse which has lead me to be at home from work today trying to sleep it off. It's 6:30 and I still feel crappy. If I have the flu tomorrow I'm checking into the hospital and staying until I deliver. Seriously. I knew this would be hard but I really had no idea. No book or website can prepare you. I was very angry with those of you out there who say "when i was pregnant it was great, I didn't even know i was pregnant," as I was crying on Tues. night but I know that's not the right attitude. I'm happy that it was easy for you, just a bit jealous. I don't believe you though, I think they give you memory erasing drugs soon after labor in the hospital but I'm on to that little trick and I'm not going to let it happen to me. The painful pregnancy has been helpful to my prayer life though. I have a moment every afternoon at work where i lock myself in the bathroom stall and pray that I won't be in pain anymore. It also gives me a chance to pray for all my other friends who are pregnant because I have a lot right now and I really do want them to have pain-free pregnancies.
Meanwhile, baby noname is kicking every day. Still softly as if to say "i'm still here" and I really appreciate that. I love searching for nursery stuff and mike and I are still trying to choose a name. You are free to weigh in if you have something good. It has to go with the middle name Michael though so keep that in mind.
I really hope it doesn't seem like I'm complaining, I am aware that this is a huge blessing and I'm incredibly excited about the baby getting here. I'm just trying to be real because I don't want to tell you everything's okay when it isn't. I know it's going to be eventually though. :-)